So, I’ve often thought in passing about getting sterilized. And now, even though I’m only 21 years old, I’m honestly considering it.

I can’t ever see myself being at a place in my future where I would want to have a child. I don’t like children and I don’t want them.

Sterilization seems like a perfect way of being able to have lots of slutty sex without worrying about accidentally getting pregnant and then having to spend lots of money on an abortion (which I would do without a goddamn second of hesitation at this point in my life).

The only scary part is that sterilization would completely eliminate that option in my life. I feel like motherfucking Isabel Archer—eliminating choices in my life, even ones that I don’t think I’ll ever want, is really disconcerting to me. Although, look how Isabel ended up. Pffft.

Besides, if I ever decided that I wanted a child, it would be nice to be able to adopt, and raise a child who really needs and deserves to have a good life.

I dunno, maybe it’s pure socialization, but something about having a child of my own flesh and blood seems somewhat romanticized in my mind, despite my abhorrence of children.

Maybe I’m just too conflicted to make this decision right now.